Tired

I'm getting tired. Tired of the routine....my eyes are starting to wander again but I don't want a new boyfriend. Where I work, I get flirted with everyday, whether its because of my voice or the fact that I look underage or maybe even the fact that they think I'm attractive (obviously I don't see what they see). Sometimes I flirt back but not with words, with my eyes. When they talk to me, I give them a look that pulls them in. But I don't take their numbers or anything.


I have one person that I can truly just talk to. His name's Michael. He always calls me "Your beautifullness". Its so adorable! I like when he helps me with merchandising work, or even today in the bakery; hell he even got me rum! He sometimes seeks my advice on things, right now he's having a hard time with his gf. He wants to marry her n they're both virgins but it seems he's running out of patience. I don't blame him, all that pent up sexual frustration just not going anywhere. Hell, I'd lose patience too.


Back to my exhaustion. Goddess knows I love Terike but the time apart we spend working at different locations (I'm at Hi-Lo Barbican, he's at Michi SuperCenter) gives me time to get fresh air, so to speak. I don't think about him, I don't have to talk about him. Its almost like he doesn't exist while I'm at work. And all this freedom has gotten me a few eyes and smiles around the store, sometimes I like the attention, other times its annoying. Like sometimes I just wanna do my work without any distractions, but I do feel a bit lonely though and that's when I turn to Michael. He may be a Christian but he can get down with me.


Theo is a character to say the least. Always likes walking extra close to me. I have him to work with tomorrow(I have every intention of switching with Ian tomorrow after he ditched me with Squire) but he's tres` young in attitude, but a year older than me. Him n Matches seem to always team up on me. But then you have Neville down in the warehouse. Now THAT is a character. Always singing n then when he's not singing he's flirting with me, lol. He's okay otherwise so I don't mind the flirts.


-sigh- About 6 more days until I'm done though. What happens after, hopefully if they like me, they'll take me on. If any of the merchandisers like me, maybe they'll take me on. I just have to wait n see what happens. But this is the perfect distraction from Terike.


Blessed Be